Peaks And Valleys

by RebShang

I awake in a cloud
of this effusive scent, this permeation of Grace that stirs
My muted senses until I understand
That when God says “I love you”
That “you”
Is me.
And something beautiful begins to happen –
A dismantling of my self-sufficiency, replaced by
A tendency toward compassion.
My whole being is being made
Capable of this:
To love.
Never have I felt so free
And ready for the day.

they say to have rock solid faith is to never question
or doubt
or be derailed
i must be doing this christianity thing wrong
i thought the church was for the skeptic
for the shame-filled and sorrow-crushed
to find hope